tumeric tea, health benefits

Healthy Turmeric Tea    (Thanks to Upassana for sending this)
By Brad Lemley
DrWeil.com News
A spicy dish of Indian biryani and a hot dog purchased at the ball game may seem to have little in common, but both feature a liberal quantity of turmeric (Curcuma longa). In the biryani, the spice is an essential part of the curry mixture that gives the dish its distinctive zing. In the dog, turmeric is what makes the slathering of American mustard bright yellow.
The good news about this cross-cultural spice is that elderly villagers in India, who eat turmeric in their daily curries, have the world's lowest rate of  Alzheimer's disease. That does not appear to be a coincidence. In a study at the University of California at Los Angeles, scientists fed curcumin, an active compound in turmeric tea, to rats prone to accumulate beta-amyloid plaque in their brains - the abnormality associated with Alzheimer's disease in humans. Curcumin blocked the plaque's accumulation. It also appeared to reduce inflammation related to Alzheimer's disease in neural tissue. The rats fed curcumin also performed better on memory tests than rats on normal diets.
Other studies have suggested turmeric has broad anti-inflammatory and anti-cancer effects as well. But few Americans eat enough curry to achieve these protective effects. Although Dr. Weil does not recommend daily mustard-laden hot dogs as the ideal turmeric delivery device, he found a potential solution during one of his many trips to Okinawa, the island nation with the world's longest average life span, 81.2 years.

Okinawans drink copious quantities of turmeric tea. Some brew it fresh, but others simply buy cans or powdered instant versions of unsweetened tea from their local stores.
If you would like to try it, here's a recipe. Feel free to experiment with the ingredients and flavorings until you find a combination that suits your taste:
Bring four cups of water to a boil.
Add one teaspoon of ground turmeric and reduce to a simmer for 10 minutes.
Strain the tea through a fine sieve into a cup, add honey and/or lemon to taste.
Some people like to add a teaspoon of ginger along with the turmeric. While ground versions are more convenient, it's worthwhile to experiment with freshly grated turmeric for a more vibrant flavor. These distinctive, deep-orange roots are increasingly available in American grocery and natural food stores. Enjoy!
Read other articles by Dr. Weil and explore the power of green tea."http://www.drweil.com/drw/u/ART02735/green-tea-benefits

Yay!!! I'm Excellent!!!!!

Yes! I'm excellent! Thank You Amma!!!!!
Been getting better and better every day for a week now.
How can it get any better than this!???!!!!
I wake up at 4am Happy!, feel fully Me in my body, well rested. I have a cold shower, a protein drink with greens powder and other goodies and then I go to Archana (the prayers and 108 and 1000 names of the Divine, followed by Arati)) in the Kali temple with the women, then come home and do my IAM meditation. Then an extended meditation if I can squeeze it in.
Life is sooo good.
Then my seva of a 1.5 hr. session Psy. healing reading and 1/2 hr of Reconnective healing , or "The Reconnection", then breakie in the dining hall. Do necessary stuff till lunch, then at 3, do my second seva session.
After, perhaps a beach meditation, under the palm trees, and or, a coconut water first. Or back to my room for other to dos. 6:15 Bhajans, (prayers, the 300 and 108 names of the Divine, and sacred love songs to God-dess, followed by Arati)
Then to my flat for a read, laundry or whatever, and then bed about 9pm.
There is nothing like being unwell /going through growth periods, being "worked on" to appreciate sweetness, grace and energy!

All these schedules of course change when Mother is here. She is finishing the South India tour, and will be back around the 8th. Then later near month end, off She goes for the N. India tour. I chose not to travel with Her at this time. Perhaps after I return from the year in Canada, I will want to.....

The weather is getting hotter now. We residents can easily handle it. New visitors or over weight residents are having a more difficult time. Especially those having "hot flashes" or "power surges" as I used to call them.

Oh! Tomorrow I get to pick up my new computer glasses from Vallikavu, the village across the backwaters. I splurged and got rose titanium frames. Yes! we now have an optical store here! amazing. Hopefully also the recording devise (Mac compatible for sure) I ordered online, for my seva, will arrive.
Today, I also ordered 8 earthing mats from Delhi, to ground when on the computer and in bed, for me and friends.  I'd been researching this for some time and finally get the fabricator and me on the same page! How cool is that!

Bhajan time, just needed to share the joy!

Love and great big Amma blessings to you all.
Kalavati

My wonderous adventures with Access Consciousness

Hello Beautious Beings,
I borrowed a large part of this blog from Esateys, taking liberty to delete her personal info.
Why reinvent the wheel, when I needed to share the same info !
 I want to share with you a very powerful modality that I have been very excited about, studying and working with these past 2 months. I was guided to Access Consciousness  www.accessconsciousness.com through a series of searches (in this order) with youtube , Rikka Zimmerman, Dr Dain Heer, and Gary Douglas (founder/channel), then most recently, an interview with Gary on the Sheila Show.
I have downloaded many interviews and teachings on the subject and am fascinated, and excited to share it with my light-being friends and past students.
Access is about clearing out energetic blocks, old programs and lifetimes of karma that subconsciously run our lives and keeps us in a box of coagulated energy. It is a very simple process that allows us to live in the possibility rather than constraint, in total freedom rather than being controlled by the mind. I feel it is a very powerful tool,  to expedite your Awakening and Enlightenment. Since we are on the cusp of The Birth of our New World, it is even timelier and more important to add this work to our toolbox.
It's about living in the moment and living in possibility.  Access will clear the way for you to create what it is you want your life. More importantly it will create the internal shift to be able to receive what is already yours and instantly available to you. It works with creating financial abundance, vibrant health and meaningful relationships, to mention just a few things.
  I have just downloaded (their 3 e-books) "Talking to the Animals" (adding incredible tools and insite to my animal communication & Healing skills). I read most of it last night! "The Place" and “Right Riches for You” (,http://www.rightriches.com/ )(check these out,  they're available on Amazon, and other sites.  "Right Riches" is specifically geared to clearing $ stuff, & creating financial freedom but is a good primer on the basics of the program and its many, many uses.

I am eager to continue this journey of freeing ourselves and each other from the day to day stresses and to “Live in the Question” of the expanded possibilities of every situation.  This world of infinite possibilities is a key piece to our Awakening.  The journey of living in each moment as an open universe of manifestation is how we can bring greater Connection, more money, improved health and healing of relationships to fruition.  I know this is what you and all of humankind desires.

...I found a Vancouver facilitator excited to offer these introductory courses in my centre on Vancouver Island after I return in May. I feel these courses are a powerful adjunct to all the work we are already doing, to continue to expand us and take us ‘Home’.  It is not a replacement and it augments the Deepening which we are experiencing.

THE BARS COURSE:
What are Access Bars?
There are 32 bars of energy that run through and around your head. They store the electromagnetic component of all the thoughts, ideas, attitudes, decisions and beliefs that you have ever had about anything. There are Bars for healing, body, control, awareness, creativity, power, aging, sex and money; just to name a few. Each thought, idea, attitude, decision or belief that you have fixed in place solidifies the energy and limits your capacity to be generative in that area and to have something different show up in your life with ease.
In this full-day class you will learn Access Bars with total ease. Each class includes:

• coaching by a Licensed Access Consciousness Facilitator
• viewing “Access The Bars” DVD* where founder, Gary Douglas personally demonstrates technique
• you, receiving Bars twice
• and you, running another person’s Bars twice

In addition, you will be provided with a comprehensive Manual, charts and other information to assist you in running Access Bars, on your own, for other people. And if you attend a total of **three Access Bars classes, you are eligible to be a Certified Bars Facilitator. Many people have created successful businesses with this unique, gentle-touch therapy.

THE FOUNDATION COURSE: 2 days, that gives you an opportunity to experience the world from a completely different perspective. It’s not about telling you how to create your life, how to live your life or how to function in your life. The target is, to give you the space to look at your life as a totally different possibility. This 2-day Foundation class is where you begin. It addresses topics such as:

• Being Humanoid
• Keys to the Kingdom
• The 5 Cornerstones of this Reality
• Energy Space & Consciousness
• Your Financial Situation
• Being You
• Conscious Embodiment
• Questions to Change Anything in Your Life
• Demanding of You
• … and much more

In addition, you will be provided with a 90+ page manual to take home.
This class is generally run consecutively with Level 1, though can be taken separately. They are about unlocking you from limitation and allowing you to step into greater possibilities for actually having everything you truly desire in life.
LEVEL ONE COURSE: Having completed an Access Foundation class, this 2-day Level 1 class takes you further into living from no-judgment and opens the door to greater possibility and choice. It addresses topics such as:

• Money, Abundance & Wealth
• Distractor Implants (you will learn what this is in class)
• The 5 Elements of Intimacy
• Sex
• Questions For Use In Life
• Happiness
• Elfs & Rattlesnakes
• Entities
• Hands-on Body Processes
• … and much more

• This class gives you more tools and know- how to be more conscious in every aspect of your life and wipe away the anti-consciousness and unconsciousness effortlessly and easily. You receive practical tools so that when you go out in the world again, class doesn’t end as you leave; it is a continuation of your life as a more conscious being.

In addition, you will be provided with an 80+ page manual to take home.
I'm really stoked about this,
How can it get any better than this????!!!!

Love and blessings,
Kalavati

full Moon Meditation, Global Coherence

I am passing this on.....It's a powerful,and scientific use of Love/prayer...

GCI January 2011 Full Moon Synchronized Care Focus

Welcome to the Global Coherence Initiative’s January 2011 Full Moon Synchronized Care Focus. Doing the GCI Care Focus together helps amplify the coherent heart energy and collective intent.

Many people and groups throughout the planet are realizing that unity and more heartfelt connection are the next spiritual leap for humanity. They are talking about a new world unfolding in the collective consciousness and sensing the facilitation of divine love from universal source. Although stress increases at times as structures and systems that no longer serve humanity continue to break down, people connecting with the divine love then radiating it into the planetary energetic field can help to ease this process and progressively create a better world. The transitions we all are going through are helping redefine our lives and life on the planet for the better.

For the January 2011 full moon synchronized Care Focus, we will continue the "Divine Love" Care Focus we began last month and add to it. While breathing divine love, we will add visualizing humanity increasingly connecting with each other from the genuine heart, with non-judgment and compassion.

Last month I read a few words written by Doc Childre, founder of the Institute of HeartMath, the sponsor of the Global Coherence Initiative, about divine love which I’ll read again:
Divine love embodies warmth and compassion for those throughout the planet who are experiencing duress from unexpected or accelerated changes. Change is not our enemy. Yet at times it calls for our heart to be the centerpiece of intelligent discernment, which helps us find a flow through change. We all know that resistance to change often intensifies our challenges. Radiating divine love into the planetary energy field can help prevent or soften personal and collective challenges.

Divine love is a high frequency love from universal source that nurtures the wholeness while remaining free from attachment to outcome. It has a texture of endearment, yet allowance. Divine love serves as an amplifier of our own compassion and unconditional love.

You don’t have to use the term "universal source" as your reference for divine love – you can refer to your own source of divine love based on your individual belief system.

We’ll do this Care Focus together for fifteen minutes. It’s really okay to stop sooner or continue longer if you choose. There will be music playing or you can mute the music if you prefer. Until the next synchronized Care Focus, it would be effective for the planet if we individually do this technique often in the Global Care Room.

In this Care Focus, use your imagination along with your heart feelings to connect with the divine love, then simply breathe it in and radiate it into the planetary energy field. Simplicity is powerful and effective when the heart is sincere. Avoid the mind’s temptation to get stuck on trying to get it right—if your heart is genuine and sincere, know that your care will be effective.

Now let’s do the Care Focus together – Let’s breathe in divine love through all of our cells then radiate it out to the planet and our global community. While breathing divine love, visualize humanity increasingly connecting with each other from the genuine heart, with non-judgment and compassion.

(After 15 minutes)

Many people throughout the planet are using this or a similar technique to bring more ease and energetic balance into their personal life, along with facilitating humanity and the planet to have a smoother integration through our collective adventure of rapid change.

Please join us in the Global Care Room, you can enter the room directly from www.globalcarerooms.org. (If this link - www.globalcarerooms.org - doesn't work, copy and paste it into your favorite browser.) Simply log in with your e-mail and GCI password. You may also enter by logging into www.glcoherence.org and clicking the Global Care Room link on your My Member Page. Thank you for providing energetic care and support.

Thank you for your participation.

The GCI Staff

Global Coherence Initiative – 14700 West Park Ave – Boulder Creek, California 95006 – 831-338-8500

Amrita Yoga and the gift

8 Jan. 2011
Four day yoga intensive,
What an awesome gift to offer myself after having a difficult month. I’ve had the most wonderful experience with Nirendra a resident male, and Shobana (bramacharini) instructing 3 hrs of yoga /day with a lecture on various aspects of Amma’s teachings from different guest speakers.

The Last Day
    Today after archana at 6:15am, I went to the last day of yoga, early for the morning class....  to do my IAM meditation. I have been doing this practice for many years, With the year long, short term memory loss, (which I now realize is Amma’s doing), I need the original “cheat sheet” instructions. Also practicing it in a new location, rather than in front of my altar added a new dimension to it. I didn’t have the visual memories, and familiar comfort of my sacred space. I had to even look at the asana postures, before each one. After shavasana, I went to roll onto my side and, because of the different location, I couldn’t remember what side I should come up on. Thought about my heart side and couldn’t remember what side my heart was on, then felt for it, and couldn’t feel it beating as I had just done “dead man’s pose”. I finally decided on the right side as that seemed most logical.
    I finished the meditation technique, and prayed as usual. In that aware place, I had a deep realization that Amma is not just “yanking my chain” but is actually purposely emptying my mind! I was stunned at that realization. This is something many aspire to achieve. She has a special way of doing things to and for us. As this awareness settled into me, I was filled with such gratitude, awe, and an intense sweetness washed over me. Tears of gratitude, at the awesomeness of this situation, poured down my face.
     Oops, time for gathering in front of the instructor to watch a demo. I wiped my face and went, then prayers there, and more intense gratefulness welled from my core. Luckily no one noticed, of if they did, ignored me. How would I explain this without a story? “Oh I’m just grateful Amma took my mind”.
    Everyone has been telling me how clear my eyes are, and how different I look.  I just smile and say, “It’s all Amma’s doing”.

    Amma and the many who went with, arrived home today after the Callicut tour. The population here doubled! However, with Amma, comes longer opening hours and better and more food options.
Off to bed, tomorrow I get back to “sessions seva” again.
Love and blessings,

New Year

Dear Friends,
I hope you had a wonderful holiday season, And have a New Year with growing awareness.

I have a great leela story... I broke 2 wrist malas in the last couple months. As you may know, when they break it's karma released. "Thank you!" I say.
 So I was in the western shop, that I rarely go into. It's gifts, and "nice" clothes for visitors. We renunciates get ours made for us. so, I'm looking at the basket of wrist malas. I'm to wear turquoise to "make my energy friendly" and lapis for "protection". There in the basket was a small rudraksha mala with just 6 lapis stones for colour, and a turquoise as the "guru bead!!! I bought it, took it, with my name on paper taped to it , the next day to temple for Meditation day. I put it on Amma's petham for Her to bless. After lunch, I went to retrieve it, and it was gone. I asked Her attendants, they said "check with Lola". Found Lola later,in the canteen, she said "ask at mother's room. It will be doubly blessed!" No one answered the door. I went and asked someone else, they said ask at the "inner temple door" to Amma's suite. Went all the way up there, through the temple darshan crowd. They said it didn't seem to be there. They suggested asking "Swamini "So I went down below the temple. and rang her bell. She said "When you give a gift to The Guru, you can't take it back" I explained It had my name on it, and was with someone elses Mantra clicker for blessing. So...I blinked back tears, and ....surrendered.

2 days later I was walking to breakfast and Neena, the indian taylor passed me, (I never see her out) She touched my face and asked "what is your name?"I didn't expect her to remember me from 1 set of clothes....a year ago. I said "Kalavati" she said "come with me, I think I have something of yours". In her shop she said "I guess Amma knew you needed this more than Her", and she handed me the prasad wrist mala!!!! Oh My Goddess!!! Joy of Joys!!! Thank You Amma!!!!!  I don't take it off now , except to wash clothes.

Most of December, I've been  ill and very tired with Amoebas,and the necessary harsh drugs.Nearly blacked out carrying my prasad lunch from Amma. Horrid headaches, in hospital 1 full day with them. I told the nurse, Prasida, how much I loved her, and what nice needles she gives! Nice drugs!
Today is finally the last of the 21 day treatment. then start the Probiotics. After a week or 2, I'll see Dr.Nibhodi for recommendations on re building.

 A woman visitor came up to me a few days ago, and said "I'm a medical intuitive. You came to my awareness during Archana, and I "got" you need....." so more health suggestions.     Amma takes away, and gives.

I asked the Dr. if these parasites could be in my brain and cause the short term memory loss. he said they aren't "in" your brain , but your blood "yes". I could have had them for a year! Nibhodi's wife told me, they can be "In" the brain!

We had an incredible Christmas Performance, "The 3 Marys", a musical, play of Life with Jesus.We have an amazing group of very talented devotees living here! Mother attended, nearly outshining the performance, and gave a xmas talk after.

Amma has been messing with my mind, had short term memory loss for a year now, I'm sure you remember me complaining about it. Well She took away the whole thing- the mind! Tuesday. Scary!!!I. Woke in the night by the alarm clock somehow set to 1:05 am, I believed Amma was giving darshan, and I had stage seva! I was so tired, and i finally thought , "why would I sign up for a seva at 1am!?" I went back to sleep. I woke in the am,very confused, luckily  saw on my watch it was Tuesday, meditation day. I then knew I had no clients, but couldn't find my daytimer, cried for an hour with confusion, fear,and feeling like - my mother with Dementia. Too late for Archana, dressed for yoga under my clothes, climbed all the stairs to temple roof, to find no yoga on Med. Day.
Finally found the daytimer in my bed that night, after a day of searching everywhere I had been! I had already missed an Indian Head Massage class with my daytimer! Rebooked it, and also have a 4 day beginner yoga intensive Jan 5-8th. I feel wonderful after yoga! it makes my soul sing. This beginner class is incredibly informative, every nuance explained. And.free for renunciates!

Mother leaves for the 4-6? day Callicut tour in a couple days, back for a few, then off for the  2 weeks S. India tour. I wanted to go, hoping I'd be better when the drugs were finished. Callicut is where I fell into a statue of Ganeesh, as I broke a bone in my foot during a puja in 2004, just before the tsunami.

But I know I need too much rest to be able to go. I had no idea these bugs and drugs would knock me out.

I'm getting Darshan tonight. Was to get it last night, but had to go to bed at 9:30, I am up at 4!. I've had 2 naps today, so hopefully I can make it tonight, my last chance.

I bought a new "mac compatible" mp3 player ($50!) in Mumbai in Sept. to record the sessions for my clients, only to find it wasn't compatible, and you had to hold it up to your mouth to record! So...I gave it to Amma for xmas. It'll sell on tour as prasad.
It was just too much, carrying my laptop all am for this Psychic Healing seva. I was told about "Tune Talk" that  plugs into my iPod. Found one on Ebay for $18. A friend from Nelson was coming, so had it shipped to her to bring. Got it with great enthusiasm, only to find my iPod is the wrong model!!! Then I was told my fancy cell phone would do it. Just needed a memory card. Many lelas around that.... now it doesn't work. .......I keep surrendering,
and learning new definitions of surrender!

All this for a promise of self realization!.....Amma!!!

When I get better, I'll teach another energy/ Healing intensive sometime in Jan. It was a great success in Sept.

This little letter is getting long...
Off to sit for bhajans, and watch Amma give darshan until the turn for westerners. Sure are a lot of people here this time of year! I couldn't believe how many indians came for Christmas darshan! We westerners weren't allowed to go on Christmas day unless we were just arrived or leaving!

Surrender! Surrender!!!!! Sounds like a song! : )

I guess it doesn't sound like I'm getting much benefit from being here, from all the stuff Amma is putting me through. I wouldn't want to be anywhere else on the planet! I just can't explain how every moment of the day, the Sadhana, spiritual practice, the incredible spiritual energy and synchronicities that occur. This is all a Divine Play, with each of us like marionettes, Amma pulling our strings, for our lessons, and teachings. Always a teaching, an opportunity for growth with every person we exchange with... Incredible opportunities!!!

Much love and light,
Kalavati

last of the backlog of letters- November back to August

30 Nov. 2010
I'll be back in 5(ish)mos!      really mixed feelings about that!
Synchronicities daily, as usual...
one amazing visitor, becomes friend, leaves, another arrives. Magic here....
I need something, someone comes and offers it!
I'm doing Iyengar yoga, and loving it!    I haven't done it since the kids were pre-school, where I learned it from a book!
 We have the most incredible instructors here! And when Amma is away, it's free for us renunciates!
So I bought yesterday, a "Iyengar Yoga with Gabriella" download dvd to keep it up between. My back loves it!

Amma is home in a few days!!!! Yay!!!! The residents are returning, visitors are coming. It's been a looooong monsoon!!! hasn't finished yet! Amma said it would be a wet one.

Breakie time, Hugs and kisses,

Om Namah Shivaya,   22 November 2010

We really miss Amma here, as she is on tour in Europe and in U.S. Home early Dec.
We got down to bare bones of people to do the necessary work here. I had too also do dishwashing in the kitchen, and volunteered to sort at recycling. PU!
People are starting to return from various places. 2 friends are coming from BC, and bringing me needed items. Like a TuneTalk recorder devise that hooks into my iPod and allows me to record sessions on it!!!! That is so amazing! I got it on Ebay for 18$ To take my mac laptop daily up to the hospital(where I now do my seva) is heavy, and risky, esp. with the heavy , at times, rain.

    I went to the dentist Dr.  Jijo Paul, in Cochin with Saswata. Got all my upper fillings replaced and teeth bleached. 100 $. He commented on my energy when he started working on me. He asked what I did. He's a Christian, I didn't know how deeply to respond. I told him briefly.
Jijo is a great dentist! Same age , or 2 yrs younger, than my son!  Saswata had to get more work done and I needed some rough edges smoothed so to support Saswata getting her major work done, we went again last Tues. She prev.had a root canal,and got a crown, replaced all fillings in front top and bottom, bonded the lower edges at gum line, and bleached, for 300 usd. He is  sweet and excellent! He was previously at Amma's AIMS hospital,and even was a consultant for Amma!
    The previous week when I was leaving, he said "I worked on you, next time you do your work on me" He had me do psychic readings on him while he worked on Saswata, and write down my findings. After, he took me upstairs to his conference room and asked me details,validated my findings, and was blown away at what I saw. He really is a bright light with a clear connection to source. Too funny, every day when Saswata went in, he'd say "where's Kalavati??? Get her a pad and pen!"
    He told us he charges westerners the same as locals, he knows we're giving a lot by being here. He took us to lunch then drove us to the YMCA motel/ camp on the river near his home. Got us a good rate, 5$ each/night, (mgr. is a client)We spent 2 nights there. Train cost (Sr. rate)50 cents! (22 rupees)about 2.5- 3 hrs trip.He even picked us up in the am on the way to the clinic!
    So all in all I did some viewing of him for 3 days , and he is an incredible bright light. Just needed grounding work and clearing info.He asked about clearing himself, when we were leaving. I'll email him some handouts I have.
    We did some shopping, they have an incredible, tall Building/mall, Oberon. We ate, had latte's I got a new excellent suitcase.

    I was a bit fluish the day after I got back, so cancelled the 2 clients and went to bed for 2 days. I'm nearly better now. I'm just so grateful it wasn't a cold. I prefer aches to a snotty nose!
A bit weak, and taking care of myself.

 I still do my sungazing. Not a lot of sun in the am for this, extended monsoon season.
My note turned story...
Love you, and send you wishes of grace, ease and health .
Hugs,
           29 Sept 2010
 I want to thank you in Mumbai for putting on the course. I'm sure it was a lot of work!
Although I took it before, 1.5 yrs ago in Seattle, with Doug Devito and a great team, I benefited enormously from this.

I intuited a few months ago that I really needed a direct download from Eric! Don't know why.

2 months ago a woman I had only briefly been introduced to, was sitting on a bench here at chai time. I sat on the other end of the bench and drank my tea.In a few moments she said "Oh here comes in Archangel Michael" , then proceeded to channel him. Saying "What you are doing is bringing light and Information onto this planet"..(I thought He missed "Energy"and discounted it, then said "you need a direct download from Eric Pearl."
I got the "truth Chills" running through me, which always tells me this was truth of a high order.

Another psychic acquaintance here, volunteered the day before I came, "that I didn't really believe in it". So ...Perhaps a belief system I was unaware of.

During the weekend, I was also able to have a demo with Eric and my subluxation in my neck was healed!

The re take was a huge shift for me, and I really own it now. I was able to even explain to a woman who hadn't taken it, but was waiting for a friend in the outer room, why you need no other modality with this new frequency/energy. That really showed me that I much more fully grasped it this time.(as much as one can grasp something of this nature).

Eric seemed miffed that the group was so small for his appearance, with his precious limited schedule. I was surprised when you told me that you didn't advertise, did you tell him that?

I was in such an energized state when I left that I failed to sign the email list. Could you please place me on it?

The entire weekend, and last night, back at the ashram as well, I was so energized that I was able to sleep little.It was also Mata Amritananda Mayi's birthday with thousands of people here, but most people were across the backwaters at our colleges. Hopefully I will catch up tonight.

Thanks again for all your work and effort!,

Love and blessings,
28 Sept, 2010
I'm just back late last night from Mumbai (Bombai)with ERIC PEARL!!!!! A new friend joined me. It was excellent. Renewed faith in the reconnective healings, Eric worked on me as a model. Neck was out, now fixed. Sleep deprived due to the energies.
Had a great hotel, cheap, balcony overlooking inland sea, sunrises, sungazed daily.

Got back to thousands of people for Amma's birthday. went to bed.
I love you!!!!!
Sept 11, 2010
The whole class now is running higher energy. We had our 1st day of actual healing yesterday. The healers were blowing away the healees! I had to explain the energy and ask them to turn it down and step back some distance. They were so blown out by someone just checking their grounding, I had to do repair work, and a gentle healing on 2 women and a man.

Everyone is now thrilled, & understands what I was talking about....and 7 more classes to go!! Yikes!!!
I'm concerned about connecting them to their healing masters, as that usually intensifies the energy!
The gang is buzzing. Folks are asking me when the course is offered again as their friends want to take it. The group also wants the clairvoyance programme. I don't know....how that energy would be able to be brought in by me anymore with what we're doing at this level!!! I'll wait, teach this a couple more times and ask Amma about the next level.
I almost don't recognize myself anymore!

...In my class today, I started actual healing techniques, and found the class was now also running the higher frequency. They were blowing away their healees! Now they believe me about the level I'm running. They left class in laa laa land and stunned, and teary grateful.

Love you,
 2 Sept, 2010,     As you may know I'm teaching a month long intensive here now. 2 -6 week courses together in 16 days.
Residents are stopping me as I go by and they are saying, I have friends taking your course, and they all say how nice you are and great the course is. Good feedback, as I was feeling that I'm not able to plan the class, but I think that's all part of it. It's being taught through me!
Yesterday's Class 3 was so powerful. ...I was running so much energy Monday, that my fingers were glowing electric silver blue off the middle, to 2" out beyond. (to me that's source energy) It was so distracting, as I was using my hands to emphasize , and it was hard to keep my focus on what I was saying , and paying attention to the students. I've never channelled so much energy through for a class before. I actually asked the students if they could see it as it was so strong. No one could...
I asked in my meditation that night, what was up. I got Amma,& 3 Archangels, Uriel, Raphael and Michael  were healing and raising the vibration of the class, and me.
Now I understand what Amma said, when I asked Her if I could teach a healing course here. She said "You can Try". Also my nurse friend who wanted to take the class, also asked Amma later if she could take it....got the same answer! Hummmmm.  Everything is so much stronger here energetically, and the planet is energetically raising.(Is it happening to you guys?)
When the class was feeling each others auras, they had difficulty with the volume and intensity of energy coming from the senders.
I'm getting the Ashram is a higher dimension.

I keep remembering Kripalou saying in my reading that panchakarma would blow my channels wide open. I'm certainly   clearer...
Hummm, stay tuned.

I've got to get my blog happening!I set it up on 2 sites, then forgot the password ! Blogspot was..kalavati@blogger.com , & wordpress was ammaskalavati@....Thanks Sheri for the idea!

Tomorrow is Krishna Jaiante, His birthday celebration, I have a new (to me) traditional Kerala sari, unbleached cotton, with narrow woven purple w/ gold trim, to wear. I dyed my white choli (blouse)and undershirt beige, with black tea so it will match. Big celebration, Pujas', cow worship, parade, (some men} and most children & women dress up as gopi's..young Krishna devotees, or young krishnas. One man, grows his white beard all year then shaves it, and dresses in a colourful sari, the whole make up bit. it's quite funny.

The internet system is down... so I guess you won't get this for some time...

Love and blessings,

29 August, 2010
Hi Precious friend,(friends)
So busy doing 2 - 6 week courses in 16 days! Intensive!!! that's what they call it. Between Onam, and the day before my trip to Mumbai (Bombay) for Eric Pearl's workshop, and return on Mother's birthday.
Doing it here , at Amritapuri is considered Amma's body,and  with Amma's Grace it's amazing.
I just channel this incredible energy the whole time. I used to get high teaching before, but in the presence of the Holy Mother, it's life altering! Everyone (21 students, 5 of which are men!) are sooo thrilled, I get stopped in the hall by different people and they say "my friend is taking your course, I hear it's wonderful I want to take it next time!!". We raised 168,000 rupees ($3800) for the ashram charities! I luckily limited the class to 20, or I would have had a larger class...
Today is day 2, I'm bringing crystals to do a grid chair so everyone can sit in it for half the class, through the course, and experience that energy.
We have a one - lane dirt, village road between The Seaside Ayruvedic Building and the rest of the ashram. When the busses and lorries go by I have to pause. So today I get a mike. Thats good, as I had a sore throat after class yesterday. I worked on it , and took grapefruit seed extract, oil of oregano and tumeric caps. and it was gone this am. Thank the Goddess!
Have to try to find thick paper for name tags.
Eat breakie, and get going.

Blessings, & Love to you,
                        26 August 2010
Hi Precious friends,
My double growth period has just lifted. All about Surrender ....to know everything here is, at it's base, Amma and her teaching.

I'm in the middle of planning/beginning my first class here. My psychic Meditation course and Psychic Healing class together in a 25 day intensive! Starts in 2 days! Yikes! Amma really set me up! I have to update my notes and make it appropriate for here.
2 weeks ago , I had a friend come up to me and say I saw your face in my meditation and then I got you were going to be teaching, in a big way. Same week 4-5 people came to me asking if I would teach a healing course. So...I asked Amma. She said " You can try"
The ashram is really big in intensives now while so many visitors are here.
The office is blown away at the response they are getting. I've done so many sessions here, many people know of my work. I've limited it to 20 people. Luckily there is a yoga intensive already started so many who want it are already committed. This will allow me to do it and then another shortly after.
Gotta run, the lights are going off , it's bhajan time, Amma is giving darshan. It's Onam here, big 10 day kerala holiday.

I'm flying to Mumbai at the end of the course to take reconnective healing again, from founder Eric Pearl. I got" I need a direct download from him"....
Hugs,

 24 August 2010
I've been through a huge growth period, I just have to keep surrendering to Amma, knowing everything here is from Her..we can't do healing sessions in our flat, I have to use the 3rd floor hospital physio room, with half wall thin partitions. My clients are dealing with incest, rape, abortions, etc, very confidential, and little privacy. Also some folks cant climb the stairs!
I was also told that what I do here for seva, I can't do for a living when I go back to Canada for the year!!! It's all I've done for years!   I'll have to ask Amma before I go home.
I'm starting a course combining the Psy. meditation and healing classes, to be completed in 1 month! I'm getting a lot signing up.
I'm flying to Mumbai next month to re take the reconnective healing course. The founder Eric Pearl will be here to teach it! .I got that I need a direct download of the energy from him! Hotels there are expensive! Almost $100/night for a very inexpensive place! I hope I can get someone to share with me!!! I've never paid that much in Canada!
But... The growth period is lifting... and I still love being here.
Love you,

Om Namah Shivaya, 25 August 2010

I didn't think of Onam being just local. India is so vast, of course there would be different customs and holidays. Onam was fun. The elephants are always entertaining, especially with Amma hand feeding them. They really listen the her , and mind her. She even had Lakshmi kiss Ram with their trunks! Then they blew tons of water over everyone.
Local poor village families, and people who travelled some distance, all wearing their best. Everyone got served prasad lunch by Amma. That evening was an eclectic array of entertainment. So many talented devotees!
No photos taken, but several brahmacharinis commented on my sari looking so nice. I usually just wear a half sari.

My course begins tomorrow. I love teaching. I channel so much energy, I get so high with this. Unfortunately, due to the timings of venue available, I am not able to continue the healing sessions during the month course.
I just surrender it all. I'm really learning to surrender through this past month. Amma is always changing things, keeping us on our toes.
Love and blessings to you

            23 August 2010
Happy Onam,
I bought a new cotton sari for Onam. I watched youtube to learn pleating tips!
perhaps I'll get someone to take my photo, I also cut my hair shorter....major renunciate.
The Energy Healing course I'm (me and Amma) teaching begins is a few days.

Big programme today with Amma, the elephants, etc. Many people here.a feast.
Love and Blessings

Om Namah Shivaya,                         22 June 2010

Busy time, Amma's Birthday, but probably not as busy as Winter...I will be gone for 4/5 days just before Amma's b'day to study with Eric Pearl in Mumbai, Amma willing....

No one is here now, it's quiet, very quiet! And the monsoon, a day or 2 of sun, part sun, then days of heavy rain and huge winds. Everyone / well the younger men and women,have fun in the wind tunnel between the buildings on the way to meals and chai! The monster lightening happens before and after monsoon season. I'm soooo grateful I'm over my fear of lightning!!!
    My new afternoon seva is in the doll room. I'm cutting out Amma doll bodies, and "tiger skin" asanas. The scissors here are lousy. Later I can ask Amma if I can make the dolls.....The sevites are sweet, and it's very gentle on my mind and body.

Well this is meditation day,  I guess I'd better meditate before chai...
Love and blessings,

14 june,2010

I just finished the 3 months of Panchakarma and rest/self care. And, yesterday chopped my hair off again .

Just today, interestingly enough, I Started signing up folks for sessions, and had the first one today. I did do 2 "specials" last month, but that doesn't count.
The interesting and disturbing thing is Amma has said.."no more sessions in our rooms"!!! There was no room for me, that's why I did the work in my flat in the first place! So....I'm now working in the Physio room/men's massage room 3rd floor hospital. That's quite some distance to schlep my laptop in the monsoons. Then how do I work with physically challenged ones? When the gang returns from tour this room becomes the mens again....Hummmm. The women have 2 rooms and they are fully booked and only 1 is private enough for my work.
So...we'll see.... money talks...I bring in lots of R's for the charities...Darmishta who is in charge of the rooms for women, doesn't seem supportive of or seem to appreciate the value of "Psychic work"...my take on her response to all this.

Re the Reconnection....It's in the air these days. Eric Pearl is coming to Mumbai in Sept. I'm excited to do the courses again with him, I've never met him. He seems to only teach in foreign countries. Our faithful cashier and friend Veena is stoked about him after receiving  The Reconnection and reading his book 3 times. She is seriously considering attending the course with me. His book has layers. I've read it 2-3 times and it's different each time.
I can't say much about Reconnective Healing because I always combine it with the psychic work. I feel it is very powerful, and there is incredible potential as the healer opens their channels to higher and higher frequencies.
I just know it's very important for me to be doing it, as you know, my Divine guides made me learn it and bring it here.
The very ill client i had today, also a healer, could really feel areas of concern in her body being "worked on" she was actually crying when we finished. She needs more work...we'll see.

So Precious, I don't know if I answered you question ....
If I did only this I guess I'd know. I like the psy. work as it teaches, and is concrete.


20 April, 2010

I just had a day away from the ashram, went to Varkala beach , 2 hours south, on an express train(my first)with a new friend. To help her get her things together and move here. We had a good time,ate good food, shared deeply, shopped for leather soled sandals, to connect to the earth.... I couldn't find my swimsuit, so didn't go in the water.
It was so hot there, and the window faced the common balcony , which we had to have open. I was so aware of possibly being seen scantily clad, and the heat, and forgot to drink water...I hardly slept... and woke with a headache which went when I drank enough water...Had 2 coconut waters when I got home,    so looking fwd to hitting the hay now at 8:30pm

Love,Kalavati
Om Namah shivaya ,         11 April, 2010

I trust you are doing well...Life is always up and down, but make the best of everything that occurs...
Re David Wolfe’s Longevity now Programme,
My internet is very slow (we have 5 colleges here at the extended ashram)I have to allow it to download 1st then 2 hrs later watch it. Takes a long time but this is amazing info!
I'm recording what I can... Dr Stewart Blakie and spouse Kim, live in Victoria area and are part of the Vict. raw food group. The grounding is the most important info, and that is the first 2 lectures. I'm having trouble grounding my flat, as our electricity is not grounded!!! Yikes!!!  I can't throw a copper wire down the building and shove it in the sand, 6 floors down. So i'm barefoot every am and sungaze barefooted. I wear thick sandals when it rains as the parasites apparently can come up through the wet sand and burrow into the feet. All sandals are rubber/plastic here. I got a friend who went to a tourist place to get me a pair of leather sandals. I wear them. What a difference! in 1 week! I'm more cheerful, feeling like a cloud was removed from me. We were raised with mostly rubber soles!  The blood cells un clump after 1 hr being grounded, and I don't mean energetically, like the grounding cord from the 1st chakra! :)

I love you all!!!!
 Om Namah Shivaya,    25 March 2010

We had an enormous funeral the last 3 days for Amma's Father, we called him Acchan, means father.
He wanted a big one. So he got it. He must have been a great soul to birth Amma!
Chanting the Bhagavad Gita Chapter 8 over and over day and night. last night at 8 we did the cremation ceremony. Thousands of people, circumambulating him and placing flower petals on his body.
Then he was carried to the huge fire pit, and covered with all sorts of wood and camphor ect.. Amazing. And the weather is hot. The college student girls kept passing out trays of Lemonade with Cardamom , so good! I have my head wrapped in a turban when I'm out to keep drafts away as I do Panchakarma, so I was hotter....I have a headache from not enough water, I forgot my water bottle from 4-8:30 pm!
Oh ...pause for sun gazing... back in 4 minutes 10 sec... : )


 Om Namah Shivaya,          14 March, 2010

I'm in my 2nd week of Panchakarma, I'm absolutely bagged. It is so deeply penetrating. I had no idea. I was just going to trim a woman's hair, just remove the split ends, and had to cancel.
I'm having hot herbed oil baths this week. Tuesday I start Shirodhara, which is herbed oils poured back and forth across the forehead.
Then herb rice bundles rubbed on the body.

I just got an Email from Julie Jera, at The reconnection office telling me Eric is coming back to India, Mumbai (Bombay). Quite a distance from here in the south. In Sept. 24th-29 I'm thinking of going. I'd love to see him. The price for the Level 1-2 is $525USD. Apparently there is a discount for repeats...That's a lot of rupees! 23,000 plus! It's a long way to go to hear him. I've yet to take a train in India. I've done the reconnection to about 50 people, some residents, would probably come. I have to get permission to go. I'm sure it would be no problem. Since it's training for my healing seva.
She is getting calls for practitioners in India already. There are only 2 in this huge country.
I trust you are doing well, and your family is healthy and good.
love and blessings,


2 January 1010

Om Namah Sivaya,
It's taken a few days to get this out due to weird email addresses....

Beloved friends and family,
I hope you all had a blessed Christmas/Winter Solstice
It is new years day here. a half day ahead of most of you. My kids are just starting new years eve.
I did sleep in to 8am! I was going to take the am off to lay in bed and relax, and read a book I have to return in 6 days. I only can read for 1/2 hr at bed time as I fall asleep. I went to bed with a headache and awoke with it. I'm sure it was neck misalignment and dehydration. I forgot my water bottle all day yesterday. Only had like 3 glasses of h2o, with our heat that is dangerous. I have been drinking a glass an hour. But...I got up, made a couple of calls, breakie, and finally time to write a long over due letter.The trouble is sending the group addresses take a long time to correct the glitches.

We have here a record number of visitors. We had , after Amma finished darshan about 10pm, a celebration of talents, fire jugglers,traditional dancer, etc and group performance by the kids. I happened to be sitting just 6 chairs from where Amma eventually sat. Such Grace. She gave a new years speech, and we sang a rocking song. It ended at 2am. Luckily I was planning ahead, for once and thought of Me. I didn't book a client this am. So I got to sleep in till 8. made a leisurely breakie,  called my daughter & Gr. daughter, called my son yesterday. They are all doing well. They went to their fathers parents home in Hope where they were born. Aaron hadn't seen his grand parents for 8 years, it was apparently quite moving. They had an extended family visit, I'm so happy they all got a chance to get together finally. I got choked just hearing Aaron tell about it.
I have been going through "stuff" here. A month long inner ear infection in Oct/Nov. just before  I had to fly to renew my visa. I refused antibiotics because I had just had 2 batches in Dec/Jan in Nanaimo, and here the Dr. didn't even look in my ears or listen to my chest, jus twrote the rx. I went to a homeopath for the first time, and didn't get instructions. I took the pills with water and swallowed them. A week later my friend told me how she had taken them wrong by swallowing them, she hopped I didn't do the same. OOPS! Then my infection got nasty. I went back to the Homeo. with a swollen face, more pills. Too late, Now I had to take antibiotics, then go twice to AIMS hosp. in Cochin. a 3 hr cab ride. Ear flushing and great pain twice.
It finally got better. the residual tinnitis is now gone.

 In November I had to fly (24 hr flight time. My ear still hurt on the first landing in Dubai!) back to renew my visa. The story here was you could renew in San Francisco, esp. Amma devotees.....So..I flew to San Francisco, and stayed with my 2 wonderful, loving sisters there for a few days.
My sister Sunny took me on BART to the S.F. Customs office......
The US no longer, (since the last 6 months)  take visa apps. from non US residents!!!!! Luckily I had 2 wonderful helpful employees (at lunch closing time) give me this info before I paid my non refundable payment.

So ...I had to fly to Vancouver! more $$$, and less time  . Spent several hours at the new Visa outsourcing . My daughter nearly was late for work dealing with it & me. I had to argue with them about getting a renewable visa. I had a "yoga letter" Which is a letter saying the ashram will sponsor me,and deal with my demise should I die (when I die) requesting a 5 yr. entry visa. They wanted to give me a 1 yr. tourist visa again. You now have to leave india for 2 months before renewing it! I had no India history on my new passport. So save passports to prove you've travelled there before, multiple times! They also don't give change with cash payments, also, so you end up paying too much money.
 2 phone calls by them to the Consulate General, a lot of stress.... they reluctantly gave me a one yr renewable... which will hold me till I get to Toronto....in 1.5 yrs....(another story) They wouldn't take my Consulate cheque because it is not the Consulate any more! It is Outsourced also!!!  Luckily  I got  the money back from my credit union!

A quick 24 hr. run to the island to deal with affairs and get a few things I wanted to bring to India, and get back to pick up my visa Sat am. I flew home to India on Mon. Allie was going to go away on that W/e but couldn't ......because of this...
We were supposed to have a inpromptu pot luck at maid Marian's, but no time...When I wasn't being driven around for errands, I was sorting my things to take /find what I needed to bring back. Sorry Marian, and friends...
I did get to meet briefly, Aaron's new Love. Misty. Very new, and short meeting, but I like her. His age, for a change. They went together to Hope for the family xmas. The family and Allie really like  her. I hope she's a "keeper". He's so ready to settle down.

I have written numerous letters to friends in my head and assume I've sent them... So forgive me if you didn't receive them.  

I have been dealing with short term memory loss for a few months, It's quite scary. Luckily it doesn't affect my reading/healings.
The stress of moving here, Renunciation,DIET CHANGE! obviously has taken it's toll. I literally walk quickly from meals to the next destination/seva. I have very little down time. But enough sleep. Sadhana  (spiritual practice) is squeezed in between the sevas and meals.
I've been to the homeopath, having acupuncture, massage - she thinks my vertibrae is restricting/ diminishing the blood flow to the brain. Most recently I went to Nibodhi. He, I think is a Naturopath, ayruvedic practicioner, reads pulses, gets the  info to balance the body with cleanses and diet. I leant his book to a friend and I can't remember who!
So...I'm Pitta Khapha(sp) Suprise!   He told me things about me and my family health history as if he were psychic, when he was taking my pulses! I wished I could have taken my laptop to record it. I had a client minutes before and she stayed, and i didn't have time to pack it up. I literally had to run to the seaside Ayruvedic clinic.
So...I'm off coffee and bl. tea (I did that little anyway) I did bring 3 lbs of water process decaf from SF.   I already took myself off wheat and dairy. Now doing a liver kidney cleanse,with some very bitter herbs .
I have to learn how to eat here, totally opposite to the raw fresh greens I ate in the west. No greens here! Very occasionally wheat grass. Spirilina & chlorella I brought.
Nibhodi also said to stop my cashiering seva in the afternoon. I thought it was a good brain balance for me. He said its too much stress to the brain. So I'm doing customer assistance in the Ecology centre rather than cash. Not only was it stressful, it was ergonomically a nightmare.
He also said I needed to have fun, swim (I'm not a swimmer), dance (Amma says!)have fun!! I really do rush about. This will have to change. I go to the coconut stall daily for a couple fresh coconut waters. yum!! and the jelly of the new coconut meat . It's called "nice" coconut. Prasina, the proprietor has been short changing people, esp. visitors! What a drag. she doesn't get it, they won't come back. I have an account, I pay 500 rs. and each drink, I enter it in her book and date and initial it, quite safe. the other option is the 1st stall which visitors smoke at, the is rumored from office sources drugs and prostitution. My new friend didn't know and went there, she sat and felt the terrible energy and went to Prasina's "less attractive" stall at her very humble home, with mouldy walls where the coconut water shoots up when hit with a machette. They really don't have any awareness of how to attract business. I suggested a sign painted on the wall....

I spent yesterday in an auto rickshaw (without my water)driving all over Karunagappally,horrific holey back roads , due to a police roadblock, Ochira and Earnakullam (sp)trying to get my UPS repaired (it just needed a fuse, which I had checked first!)and to get a converter from 240 ? to 110 volts to use my sewing machine, blender, plastic sealer(to prevent mold) I used it once and It now doesn't work! My Auto rickshaw driver Santosh, speaks little english but he tries so hard, and his vehicle is so rusted and worn...Luckily the 2nd language here is english. So most educated people speak some english. But shop keepers aren't necessarily educated....  after maybe 15 shops we found an electronics shop that will build me one. I just need to email him the specks on my devises I want converted.... With a surge protector! So...we'll see....
Tonight being new years day, Veena and I and ? are watching an apparently awesome DVD on how the earth was formed? Free rented from the eco shop. (My 2nd seva)
I brought my lg computer monitor so it's like a tv. We'll have snacks and put up our feet.
I've got some wonderful friends here. There are so many great people here, all kinds. My guide said I had a soul mate here....No one who is a kindred spirit/tight buddy yet, but a visitor who is.... but Jayem she is leaving end of Jan. : (       She is the one doing accupuncture on me, quite intuitive, and some amazing cranial work, a physician, from Germany? I'm giving her "The Reconnection" in exchange.
 She just got an "Idea" wireless stick which gives her skype. Mine doesn't, she said she leave it with me when she goes. I can just take over the payments. Even though I paid for a year on the BSNL modem I have , perhaps I can sell it to someone else with a Mac. Actually I only have 3 more months on the year payment!
Well beloved ones, This is just catch up....
I'll lay down and read for a bit before lunch. It takes me so long to write. I've a typing programme but it takes also time!
I love you all,

14 October 2009
Beloved Ones,
I've been down with a virus, But I believe I'm finished now. Boy am I going through stuff this year. It's a cycle that apparently ends in December. Then i'll get my energy back.
Mind you, moving to India is no small feat! Nor taking renunciation soon after!!!

This link is an intro to Bashar, and an old workshop. He is a channeled entity. But....It is an awesome , and funny lecture about reality.Habits, beliefs etc....
Definitely well worth the hour of time....Listen......... in the tub,   or while driving... or what ever...! Or Download it for later....

http://bashar.org/HOMEMAIN.html

"The Fundamentals"

love and blessings,

Renunciation, 26 August, 2009

9/21/09
Om Namah Sivaya, Beloved friends,
My client didn't come so I got time to type.
Well,
Time has elapsed, and my sprained foot is fine. It happened from an entity attack, (1st ever) when I was back in Canada, preparing for weekend garage sales.

The auspicious day of my Renunciation 26 Aug. has come and gone . It's now the 3 Goddess festival Navaratri that lasts for 9 days. Amma's birthday is the 26th also.

I've had stress/leelas over my Renunciation fee.
I'm glad it's over and I'm happy, although the energy is mounting, the "rock tumbler" is turning.....
So....I made a commitment to give my life to serving Amma and the ashram on Thursday August 26th. Astrologically a very auspicious day in this regard for me. Lots of prep work.Although I've lived mostly as a renunciate for the last year.
 I had 2 crystal bead with silver caps malas made, 108 beads, Long! I cleared and put my Marcel Vogel crystal on the "Guru" bead for mine.
I re-washed my white on white embroidered Sari I bought for Devi Bhava in San Ramon. The week before I wrote a cheque in US funds for part of my fee, and went to the bank to take out the rest for a cash advance as my term deposit doesn't come due until next month. I called the credit card co. and got approval to take the money out in India.
Rushed to the bank @ 10:00 before my 10:30 am client, asked for the 9,000 usd money and after a lot of paperwork and calls they handed me a wad of rupees and I left.

I put it on my alter on a silver tray, a"hand made paper"card with the Rupees,  with the malas, and ordered a sacred Tulasi leaf garland to place on Amma for my darshan that night. I got a darshan token , number 108! and did my sevas for the day. My friend Veena came to my 2nd seva at the ecology centre and got our usual wheat grass juice and left. Then she came running back in about 20 minutes saying "Kalavati, you have to leave now. The Indian darshan is on'W" and the western darshan is about to start. You have to go get ready'!
So..I ran out, apologizing to Sahaja for leaving her with the work, and went to my flat and showered, put on my sari, which I haven't worn for a year, grabbed the small silver tray for the card/money, the malas, the Garland wrapped in a damp cloth, and slightly disheveled,with wet hair, went down the the hall. I went to the little Indian woman that made the garland and asked her to straighten me. She said I looked pretty, but I meant my sari...the pleats weren't creased, and I felt it wasn't worthy of Amma. So she creased the pleats and tucked the bodice across my chest in pleats as well and threw the "tail" over my arm. Ah! better. So I went to sit in queue for darshan. Well, if my Victoria satsang friend Joanne,wasn't right there beside me! then Jane a friend from England sat on the other side. Jane probably picked the tulasi for the garland as that's her  seva over at the T. garden by the Aruyvedic hospital in Vallikavu. She went and got me water and they both grounded me. Joanne read me a poem that had me in tears, they were great as we kept playing scoot up 3 seats till we were in the temple hall with Amma.
My time came at last for my darshan, an embrace by Amma. I placed the mala and tulasi garland on Amma, she pulled me to her, It was forever. She turned to do something and I pulled away and She pulled me back twice more. She put the other mala on me, gave me a banana and vibuthi (Ash)and candy prasad. A client, Elizabeth, had been in queue to hand prasad to Amma. She prayed to be the one to hand prasad when I was there, so there she was at Amma's side watching it all. She said it lasted a long time. When you're in Her arms it seems like moments/yet eternity.
I went in a daze to get a herbal chai and absorb the Shakti. Several friends and Eliz. the prasad giver were there to share the excitement and special event. Someone bought me a cookie, and chai, I shared a couple bites of my tiny indian banana prasad. They all talked about the experience. Wow! Huge commitment.....Like a wedding, then the work begins. Watch what you ask for. The paperwork is a signed commitment to serve Amma and the ashram, the fee, and a list of what the ashram does for the care of the renunciate, and the renunciates responsibilities, and an interview and group meeting,  sharing the expectations of one.
I got a call from Amma's room that night saying all the money wasn't there. I thought it must be. They said that many rupees would hardly fit in the envelope.
Very long story short, the bank only gave me  $200 in rupees rather than  9ooo!
I went back to the bank the next am quickly before the client, and asked why they didn't give me what I asked for . they said they thought I had a limit. I had told them I had approval. Anyway, they gave me the rest and went back after my client to present the balance . Only to find out it still wasn't right. The original amt wasn't what I thought it was!  So back I go ...3rd time of filling forms , copies of passport, id etc! Finally done.

Amma is working me energetically now....
I got a special opportunity to sit beside Amma (3-4 ft away)on this past Tuesday (My day of silence) during meditation and satsang and handing out prasad lunch. In the "special Chair" .
So...I sit, after meditating somewhere else because a woman was leaning on the chair during her meditation and I didn't want to disturb her. When it's free I go and sit prior to Amma arriving. I planned to place my asana on the floor to my left to save it for Medha, the astrologer/photographer. Someone had placed theirs already there, but it was also Medha's turn to sit there close to Amma, so I moved the other asana and placed mine there.
Then a woman who is, I guess, an organizer of the darshan part,  tells me the chair I'm sitting on is too high and it's rude to sit higher than the guru. I wanted to tell her that last week a "yellow " western brahmancharini sat there and I bet she didn't tell here that. With my "In Silence" badge on my chest, I just raised my hands in a "what to do" gesture. She asked me if I had a lower stool in my flat. I shook my head. I had put my bag under the chair with my water bottle , prayer book , spoon etc in it, and she proceeded to tell me I couldn't put my purse there as the space would be used to stack plates. I put the bag on my lap. Then Bhagya Sri, who set up this opportunity for me, came and brought a stool, and told me my job was to pass plates with cups of payasm to the 2 lines of food servers beside me from my right to my left. I wasn't informed of this prior,or warned to bring a plastic cover to protect my special sari.

Medha comes and I take my asana and fold it in 3 and place it on the hard stool, under my bony bum for padding. Medha is large. she wanted to sit on my asana, I thought she'd bring her own, I thought I was just saving her place. So, dejected, she sat on the floor. Asanas are full of our own meditation energy and usually quite personal.
Amma arrived. We all meditated. I went into a deep meditation, it was awesome. no thoughts, no reviewing. I observed and did mantra japa for awhile and went into another deep meditation. Wow! Later Amma twice looked deeply into me like surgery. Hummmm.

Next, after Amma's meditation and Q & A session, 3 food serving lines were set up by the indian bramincharinis, and Molten hot Payasm (sweet rice pudding)was scooped into cups and passed over heads to me to quickly pass to 2 food lines. I hand plates full and retrieve empty payasm spilled plates, and hand them back to get refilled. I carefully hand each one separately to keep the bottoms clean and take a filled one. The woman I was handing to doubled them up and now some plate bottoms had sticky hot payasm.   We are serving maybe 4000 people. One cup was tipped by someone moving quickly and it spilled on Medha's leg, Next to me. She cried out in pain. I handed her my water bottle to cool it, but she was quicker than me and had her own. Another woman was impatient with the handing and placed a plate full of tin cups of hot payasm on my lap. Now my sari was covered in sticky lt brown pudding.
We finally got everyones plates passed to Amma to bless and pass to each guest. We got ours earlier and had to pass for blessing, the woman in front of me wouldn't take mine and pass it to Amma for Her blessing. She just shook her head.Me in silence, next to Amma Was the only one with out prasad lunch. I was choked!
After lunch was all over, I quickly washed the food & Payasm from my hands and sari with my water bottle and my hankie.  The woman next to me said I could not roll prasad unless I wash my hands. There was no time to go out of the temple with hundreds of people pressing out and in through the doors and come back, with Amma starting to give darshan. I asked by gestures, a woman I had seen at the ecology dept. shop, if she would take my dirty plate. She came back with "I was told yesterday that you create huge karma if you ask for favours when you can do it yourself, you'll have to take another life" but she took it.  I, in silence, sat stunned tears welling. I've washed many plates voluntarily for folks...
 I'd had it. I got up to leave. The 2 women organizers tried to stop me. I broke my silence and spoke  "Everything I do is wrong" I'm going. The "chair woman" quickly apologized, and she and Bhagya Sri told me to please stay. I was sobbing by this time, but wiping my face with my sari, I sat and proceeded to roll prasad (paper of sacred ash, wrapped around a hard candy )in 3s, and hand them to a woman in front of me handing them to Amma to give as each gets their hug. I ran out of papers of ash, gestured for more and was told to use the pre rolled ones, so I just took off elastics and handed them out.
When Amma quickly finished darshan for new visitors only, She went to Her room, and I went, late to Ecology centre for cashiering. The woman who took my plate reluctantly, was there. I wrote her a note apologizing, and said I'd wash her plates next time, I was sorry.
My friend Upasana, there had seen some of  what had happened, As I was front and centre in the temple with Amma, and discussed it the next day.
I was ready to talk to each woman of issue and share my experiences of the event. Upasana explained that this is all Amma, and it's my stuff to go through. The women were just pawns. I totally got it. It's just Amma working me. Vasanas coming up for completion. I asked for fast tracking by renunciation, and I get it. It's all how I respond to situations. We are really all one. Amma really gave me bliss and shoved my face in it at the same time! I was so emotionally exhausted , I went to sleep at 7pm and was still tired at 4am when I got up for archana, (Prayers).

Life continues daily with opportunities to grow and serve.  Reconnective Healing is getting powerful. Perhaps when Amma leaves I will have more time. I'm not sure. I really need to learn to type. I spend a few weeks learning each year! Then forget again.
Many festivals  now, this is Navaratri, celebrating the 3 Goddesses.The last goddess of this festival is Saraswathi, Goddess of knowledge and music. We wrap up the things/books/ instruments we want to learn and place in the Kalari next week. I'll wrap my typing course title page, Malayalam language course book, and speed /photo reading books. Goddess I really do need help....
But it really is all good. I wouldn't have it any other way.
I bought my airfare to go to S.F. to get a 5 yr. entry visa.12-23 Nov.  As a renunciate the ashram will give me a letter saying they will be responsible for me and support me. I couldn't renew it when I was in Canada in July ! They refused.....I had 4-5 months left!  It's an expensive trip for a visa. Then, another flight in 1.5 years to fulfill my pension requirement of living 1 yr in canada before getting pension. Toronto ashram was offered by Radikha, remote, 40 km from the city, 40 acres, with 3 bldgs.  Prasanam looked doubtful when I told him. said I should check it out before I go. Hummmmm.
Just had a "nice" coconut . water with pudding like flesh, coming back from the Eco shop. Showered and finished this.
According to the women at the shop several folks have been turned down in S.F. trying to get visa's when they aren't residents of US or Calif. And some horror stories of huge delays in giving the passport back .
I think now I'll fly to Vancouver after the w/e in SF area, be assured of getting a renewable "entry" visa from my home country. There are no direct flights with Emerites Air anyway to Van. Wow Visa's get very costly . I actually only need 18 months.....

New Photo links of Amritapuri
http://www.amritapuri.org/3802/july-august/
More  links on the page.....

Much love and blessings,
 Thank you Gloria, and all friends for the help with sales and releasing my possessions, thanks for the letters, even if I don't write back, Liz for the letter and for housing Sophie, Judee and Rob for caring for my Smartie, etc....and Aaron for dealing with the leftovers and care of Crosby!


Great big Amma Blessings of Divine Love and light,
Kalavati